Seven.

I hate my body so much. People say there's nothing wrong with it but it just doesn't make me feel any better. I hate looking at myself so much. Got out the bath and saw my reflection and just started crying and I can't stop. And then my belly started wobbling as I cried and it made it even worse.

I want to be okay. I want to not hate myself. I want to be happy with what I am but I can't. I know I'm not that fat. But I'm so much bigger that I want to be. I want to be skinny. Why do some people get to be naturally skinny and I get to be this?! ='/

How do I feel okay? I hate being here. I'm putting on weight from eating out of guilt. I feel sick all the time from eating food. I want to live by myself again so I can hide and do what I want. ='(