How can you suppress the feelings you have for someone when they are so strong? When they just reoccur no matter what you try to do and though despite resistance in the form of worry from that person which causes them to freak out and hide... you still can't stop trying, stop caring, stop waiting. Waiting for them to be okay, to emerge from the shadows, to remember and acknowledge your existence and waiting for them to maybe one day feel for you a fraction of what you feel for them?
I'm trying so hard to just be a friend but I feel I could so easily slip beyond that without even realising. More than I have already.
And what if that person is in a situation which prevents them from being able to be truly honest. How can you tell what they are thinking with neither confirmation or rejection?
