Sunday, 22 May 2011

One.

Wow, so this feels weird. I haven't blogged in a long time. Not since I've been at Uni, I don't think. Which is weird seeing as it probably would have been useful. I've felt so shit ever since I moved to this stupid city. I guess there's nothing particularly wrong with it just... I don't know.

So anyway, I thought I would try to get back into this again, seeing as I'm finding it harder and harder to feel I can express myself to people, and the urge to cut is forever increasing because of this.

I don't want this blog to be a negative one. Some of my old blogs were horrible, it pains me to read them now and see just how pessimistic and cynical I was. But at the same time it is kind of nice to realise how much I have grown as a person, and remember how much I have been through, and hope that I am a better, stronger person for it.

I'm not sure how often I will be posting, or even if anyone will notice this suddenly pop up. This is for me, not you, but if you are reading then thank you, and you are welcome to accompany me on my journey.

Where am I going? I can't say. But I hope it's somewhere sunny. <3

5 comments:

  1. I hope it's somewhere sunny too :)

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  2. Please don't cut beautiful, I know how hard it is and how much it feels like the best option. But you are stronger than that, so much stronger than you even realise. The sun will come out again, and until it does there are lots of people who love you and won't let you fall <3 xxxxxxxx

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  3. Cutting should be last resort. Keep doing this, I know loads of people who do this instead of cutting. It helps them express themselves easier to people, hope fully you'll be able to do that too.

    If you don't like where you are, find someone who will make you feel better there. :)

    I've heard the South of France is a sunny place, you should head there. :)

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  4. Thank you guys. <3 It means a lot to be heard.
    I had a blog for a few years which had the view of helping me stop cutting, I'd like to think that this is a blog where I have already stopped.

    I'm hoping I can stop relying on other people, and find stable support in myself, by being able to like myself. =) x

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  5. I think that's a great attitude to take towards this blog! :) You will definitely find support in this community too, should you want it! x

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